Yesterday I had another great Reiki treatment, I not only received spiritual healing but wonderful insight on my life journey. I have began to look forward to Wednesdays when I drive to my appointment, I know that once my body calms down and I allow myself to relax a meditative state soon follows. I learned years ago how to quiet down my mind to achieve a state of mediation and when I get on the Reiki table I began to slow my breath and look for the sheer purple clouds that began to flood my consciousness. 

I watch the clouds as they sometimes take the shape of people, animals, faces or places it varies the forms the clouds will take. Once I saw a fetus and I knew it was my bodies temple long before my soul entered into it. it had no legs but a thick tail where my legs are now and no arms just two little nubs where my arms are now the head was bigger than the rest of its body and shaped like that of a lizard but without the long snout. The only way I could see with any clarity was to stop trying to see but allow the vision to present itself to me and once I was able to control the desire to try and decipher  what I was seeing

Wise women and men show up in life knowing and believing that they are flawless and need not do anything other than be. Never be afraid to show up this way.........

Refuse to show up as anyone other than your authentic self. In doing so you will never have to demand that life and the people in it sees and treats you authentically. To successfully succeed at this you must also see and treat others as you yourself wish to be treated.
 
When we are being our authentic self we need not jump through hurdles, change the course of our lives, make ourselves uncomfortable, put our needs on the back burner, sell ourselves or conform to what we believe someone else might want in order that they might return our affections, give us what we want, or see us for whom we are.
 
When you are showing up in the world as your authentic self, you need not do anything except be yourself. Being who your  authentic self connects you with a soul-mate, friendships, careers, and experiences that will always authentically and joyously harmonize with you.
 
Self-authenticity is the only expectation you need to have in life which allows everything else to fall into its proper place in your life.

                                     Get Out Of The Box

We are our own individualized selves with our own DNA codes, our own viewpoint. The way we see, sense, smell taste, touch, show emotions, and the way we communicate with each other are all wrapped up in one bundle that makes us who we are, as individualized Spiritual beings. Profound and positive changes in the world and our experiences will begin to occur when we utilize our truth mechanism and communicate only and always from our heart center. We must always seek the truth from our higher selves, always going within to seek guidance and understanding. This will guarantee that we will always be operating and communicating from the standpoint of absolute truth.

 As individualized beings we must find our own unique qualities of expressions so that we don’t clone others actions. Much if not all of our lives are spent mimicking others, living without direction and little if any understanding of how to operate ourselves. We mimic fashions, we speak the language that we feel will cause us to appear a certain way to others, we hate those we are told to hate, and we judge according to what the news reports tells us.

 

Often times we find that going against the grain and seeking our own uniqueness will cause others to react to us in a manner not easily forgotten so usually we stay in the box.

When we allow ourselves to be dictated to, when we believe that we have no power, when we live in the world according to someone else’s views, we give up originality, we give up creativity, we give up on ourselves, we give up the ability to see something different, and we give up our own unique Godness.

 

Only those that are not in the box or those that are existing at the top of the box are able to bring new and refreshing ideas into existence. For the majority of the world has been brain washed into thinking they are not capable of creating anything that would be beneficial to the world or themselves.

 

We are living and showing up in the world from a viewpoint of the false prophets. When you take on someone else’s views what you are saying is this, “your communication tower to your higher self or the Holy Spirit is not working” and so you allow yourself to be pulled into the box of crying souls. Once in the box you must act, and react, believe, and deceive as the others in the box do or be persecuted, ridiculed, and made an outcast, while still existing in the box. You have been told that no matter what, you cannot get out of the box.

 

When you believe that, you have no way of making a new life for yourself and that you have no one to help you to find an understanding to this thing we call life. You start to believe what the others in the box have been telling and teaching you about who you are and where you belong.

 

You continue to believe in these despairing ways, with out knowing any better, you sink down deeper and deeper into the box. You allow yourself to be held prisoner to the outsiders points of view, feelings, emotions, wants, likes and dislikes. You become a clone and that’s where trouble begins. This very way of being shows us how the world as we know it has become so deceitfully disorganized and controlling. We have no clue how to trust our own inner mechanism, our own inner guidance system. We become fearful to allow ourselves to be led by our own Divine wisdom and the world reflects our ignorance each and everyday.

 

When we are trying to live by someone else’s views or understanding or writing or teachings we are giving up our own intuitive guidance, our own personalized road map, to travel life’s journey on someone else’s roadway. This takes away our power and allows us to easily become controlled by the negative forces of the world. It also starts a belief within ourselves that we are nothing, which causes us to continue to hold our existence in the fog of disharmony, living out of alignment with who we really are.

 

This occurs because we are trying to live by rules that are not of ourselves. We are trying to live by teaching that doesn’t vibrate to our true frequency and because they are not in alignment with the truth of our nature. We live life like we are trying to push a brick filled wheel barrel up a hill.

We are afforded these experiences because we are all trying to fit into this one box, and because we are all trying to fit in to this one box life gets stuffy, the air is stale, we cannot move about freely. In this lies frustration, anger, crime, disease, disharmony, recklessness, and deceitfulness. All because we are all trying to push others out of the box so that we can fit in and have more room, and in all actuality there is no box that is big enough on this planet that can hold who we really are.

So we must come away from the mass mind and out of the box. When we do and begin to trust and go within ourselves, there and only in that place will we find, love and devotion, our true personalities, our true Spirit and the purpose of our existence.

 

A gifted life lives in harmony, peace, and ease of mind, has space to move, to stretch and be who they really are. Outside the box, we will find the perfect understanding to all the questions that we have in the Universe. Away from the mind of the masses, we will find the comfort and love of our Creator, our divinity. The one and only source of creation, there and only there do we need to truly exist.

 

The minute we stop looking outside ourselves and begin to pay attention to what we are feeling and refuse to take everything that is spoon fed to us about life, God, the Universe, time, our place in the world, the way we should act and not act, hell and heaven will we begin to hear that still voice of guidance beckoning us to the right path.

 

Then and only then will we begin to know and understand who we are as Godly beings whose purpose is to create for themselves and the world, Heaven on Earth. Nor Heaven, nor earth can ever fit into a box.

 

                                        THE JOURNEY

One more time around is not an option for me i’m standing on the edge about to jump!  The forces of the world has got a hold on me I’ve been on my knees praying Lord!  help me please! I’m being tossed about like two towers of a city

Doubt, confusion, illusion is fighting my delusions. My reality is an abnormality. The word self love has no meaning to me I was conceived in a womb that was destroyed by oppression and slavery!

Since the day I was born my world has been a crown of thorns. The feelings of being forsaken caused me to hammer nails of self hatred ….into my soul and from the holes,  I bleed the blood of hell a thousand times in the thousand lives….. I still lead.

 No more! on my knees I cry and I plead Lord! free me from this delusion of reality. Let the veil of deceit cover my eyes no more free my spirit from this battle of Jericho.

 I want to run in this world with the wind as my friend. Not as my demons causing pain and suffering. I want to live free of this insanity so that the mammals, and the birds will swim and fly with me.

 As I stand on this edge and I know that if I jump this hell of reality will once again imprison  me. Over and over again my soul will relive this chaos to no boundless end. Until I realize that the light and the spirit of the Almighty lives in me. 

I turn away and on the path I push on, My goal is for the comforts of my Mother's/father's home. And each step I take I must forever believe that the steps I take I will never take alone.

 I push on and I push on as I push on one day the way will be made clear and that will be the day that my life in true reality I will  began to live. So I push on and on and on and Spirit said,

 " LET THERE BE LIGHT!"...... AND SO, I AM LIGHT!

Shining brightly on the path and so now I journey on in peace!!. Until that day in truth I reach, the shores of my Mother's and fathers home.

 ©Azoré Harris

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The Woods

Since I started taking pictures I have found that there are forces within this universe that challenge your fears. The other day while out in search of mushrooms to photograph... WAIT!! let me just say this before going any further….

When you put your mind on something, especially if it is something you are in search of, know that the Cosmos of Reflective Consciousness  (C.R.C.) sees your thoughts, your desires, your wanting and goes to work to bring that which you seek into your experience. It matters not what it is. The C.R.C. has no Judgments. It is as if your thought sets in motion, one of the greatest forces in the universe. I like to think of it as the force of THOU SHALL NOT WANT.

So since I was in search of mushrooms, nature, working in conjunction with the C.R.C. revealed to me one of the most beautifully designed mushrooms I had ever seen. It happened one morning while out walking a nature trail. Something caught my attention in a thick part of woods and as I focused my eyes on what appeared to be just a mass of white goo, turned out to be a vision of breautfiul white mushrooms or Florida fungi.

This mushroom was situated right in a thick part of fallen branches, the ground was a lush carpet of brown dead leaves and had the faint smell of rotting compost.  Tree bark that had been cut up by park maintenance, was also laying and rotting back into mother nature. I glimpsed a spiders web hanging from one branch to another as it glistened and swayed from a gentle breeze in the morning sunlight. And of course this web was right on the path to the mushrooms.

The rainy season was just beginning and the ground under this debris was soft and mushy. I knew all kinds of creatures were crawling around hiding underneath those slimy, wet leaves.  Snakes, spiders, and big biting bugs.  At least this is what the fear part of my nature was telling me. Here I was looking at this little treasure and it was located in a part of the woods that caused me to go into fear and apprehension. 

No matter how long I stood there, the only way I was going to to get a picture of this mushroom  was to walk into those dark, scary, bug and insect infested woods. I knew with all of the rain, heat and more rain, those leaves were like a melting compost and my feet were going to sink into them as I walked upon them to get to the mushroom.

As I stood at this crossroad, I realized I was not just standing on a trail in the park but was also in the classroom of the universe and nature was in charge of teaching me a lesson. I knew this was a lesson and knowing myself as I do I felt that Spirit could not have picked a more suitable lesson than this one.

What was happening to me was not without reason; it was for the betterment of my development as a Spiritual being. It was preparation for the beginning of living without fear of anything.  The mushroom played its part in growing where it did and creating itself the color it did and it emanated an energy of what seemed to me like pure white peace. "Corny I know but this is my blog"

This energy, I believe, touched my energy in order to get my attention “now that may be a little much for some of you but that’s OK too.”  I want you to see that the mushroom was more than a lure but a peaceful challenger to my fear. The mushroom put me in a situation I could run from or walk into. I found myself in deep appreciation but it did not make my fears go away.

All that we want can be achieved but in some cases to achieve our desire we must accept and move through the lessons life offers us. These lessons, in my opinion, are there to help us conquer our fears, defeat delusions, see through illusions and awaken us to our true divinity.  All I had to do to get the shot of this beautifully designed fungi was to walk right into my fear and have trust and faith in Spirit that nothing was going to hurt me. 
 
I had to make a decision as to whether I was going to allow fear to keep me from getting something I wanted or was I going to go on blind faith and take as many shots of natures work of art as I wanted. Since I am a Student on the path here is what I did…

 

The first shot after walking into the woods... nice

Once I started taking pictures I no longer was afraid to be in the thicket and continued to take more shots this one is a better one after the fear left me, it took me practicing several position before I took this one. I was in the woods for a few minutes but I had to get the best shot and it looks like I did...bravery

As you can see I realy got up close and personal with this shot but I wanted to be able to capture the essence of this fungi.  I hope you all can  see and feel the energy as I did from this fungi...  Some of our greatest rewards awaits us on the other side of fear....

So many of us find ourselves in anger and think nothing about it. Our thinking becomes distorted for many reasons such as being raised in a house of anger or abuse, we see and hear of anger daily in the news and the television shows we watch. Our neighbors are angry, our family members are angry, our supervisors and co-workers are angry. Everywhere we look we see and experience anger.

Therefore, our perception and rational thinking becomes distorted. We live our lives in a delusional state believing that anger is normal, that it is perfectly OK to walk around angry and very often we tell others just how angry we are. How many time have you heard this..

”DON’T MESS WITH ME I’M PISSED OFF!”  “HE, SHE, THEY, JUST PISSED ME OFF!”  “I HATE MY JOB, MY BOSS, MY LIFE”!  “MY KIDS MAKE ME SO MAD!” “I AM MAD AT MY SISTERS, MY BROTHERS, EVEYONE!” “MY DOG, MY CAT, MY CHURCH.”  “GOD, AND THE DEVIL, THE SUN, SKY AND THE MOON.”

It seems that everywhere someone is pissed off at something or everything. Some people are just angry for no reason at all. If you ask them “What are you mad at?” They will say… “I don’t know, I am just mad!”

I know that you all can relate to what I have just written. You can relate because you live in this society and can say “yes!” this is true. We live, breath, and experience anger as if it was a part of our anatomy, as though we have been given an organ that its only function is to piss us off.  We see anger as we see our heart, lungs, eyes, brain, etc, and just keep rolling on through life being pissed off and pissing off others whom believe we can.

I write this blog to say: all of what you believe to be rational thinking about anger is probably a delusion. Oh I am sure you would ask… Azoré how can my anger not be real when I can feel my blood pressure go up… when I can feel the adrenaline running through my veins? How can anger not be a real thing when I sometimes get so mad I just want to hurt someone or myself? How can anger not be real when I see tears or feel pain in my heart or stomach? This list can go on and on.

I am here to tell you that what you are feeling on the physical is your higher nature telling your body to react in order to get your attention to stop feeling or doing that which is not in alignment with your true self. It is what I like to call the unseen communicating with you that you are about to create something within your body that is not what you would truly want for your life. You are about to create circumstances, experiences, dead ends, revolving doors, and people that are going to make your life just as uncomfortable as you believe you are angry.

Anger is a wound and most times if we stop and analyze our lives we would see that the situation that we think we are angry about has nothing to do with the root cause of our anger. If we would but stop and truly take a look at ourselves and what is driving this train of anger we would find that we are the Conductor and it is us who we feel has hurt us the most.

However, because it is easy for us to blame others, we feel justified about being angry in the first place.  How much attention would you get or how much drama would it cause to walk around telling people that you are pissed off with yourself. There is not that much to report on in being angry at ourselves, not enough drama, people want to hear juicy dirt about what someone has done to us. They do not want to hear what we did to ourselves because then they might have to take a look at themselves and most are not willing to do this.

When we walk around saying something like I am angry at myself, means you are on the verge to fixing and healing and removing yourself from this rat race of delusions. And most are not going to want to hear that. They want you right alongside them suffering, living and reaping the rewards of anger such as they are.

Anger is a wound! A wound that we do not allow to heal and each time we become angry this wound opens up and bleeds over and over and over again. It becomes infected and causes chronic decease, pain, bad relationships, nothing positive can come from an unhealed wound. How many times have you physically hurt yourself, a cut, even as small as a paper cut hurts us and put us in discomfort and we want it to heal?

If we would think of anger as an emotional wound that can bleed, become infected and threaten our lives as well as our loved ones it might help us to work on living anger free.

Now do a brief check. How many of you are holding anger somewhere in your body? I bet if you thought about it right now you would find you are holding anger against something or someone.

Write it down and go to work on forgiving yourself and the one you believe caused you the anger. Forgive yourself for being angry in the first place and move past that. Keep doing this until you reach the root cause and whip that out at the core thereby removing it all together. Know that this will take a few sessions but as you continue they will get easier and easier. I promise.

 “I myself am not as angry as I once was but now I am angry less than I ever was.”

This exercise is a reward to you, one that we all will benefit from. How many times have you asked, why doesn’t the news report more good stuff? Why don’t more good stuff happen in the world? Well the answer is… it starts with you. Removing your anger is a huge leap to experiencing goodness every day.

“We heal the world by healing ourselves first, from the point of self does everything else evolve.”

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